Confidence

Life is a series of ever changing circumstances. Every time I feel like I have a hold on where my life is heading or where it's supposed to be...something changes.

John Lennon I believe said "life is what happens while you are busy making other plans". I so need to follow that in my life. Make a plan, but don't be rigid.

I never thought I'd see the day where my easy going attitude and "la tee da" approach to life would change. But the day has come.

My friend at school *he is more of a mentor/father-figure/soothsayer of sorts* told me today, "everything is going to be fine...you will be fine...move ahead with CONFIDENCE"!

Sounds so simple and yet it is the hardest thing to imagine. Nothing bad has happened...nothing good has happened...it's just that life is happening.

So today...I'm going to let confidence lead me to live the life that is happening around me...whether I planned for it, or not.

So I took a long hiatus...

I'm a firm believer in the fact that life is like a roller coaster; some years are good and some are not so wonderful. 2009 was a downward loop in the world of Miss Avery. I think it's easy to get so caught up in things that are bad for you...overeating, too much alcohol, or even a person. In 2009 I allowed myself to be consumed by someone who brought little or nothing to my life that was positive. Coming to the realization that so many around me had tried to share was difficult. There were many hurtful interactions between myself and this person...and I mainly began to feel like I was only a sliver of my former self.

I made a big decision in June of last year...that I was going to force myself off the couch...and after 10 years of little or no physical activity, I joined a gym and got myself a personal trainer. What an amazing transformation this has caused within me. I finally like what I see just a little bit better than I have in a very long time. But more importantly, I am more content with my insides as well. Letting go of the bad was not easy, but I'm well on my way to being a much better me.